you look right through me
like i'm a ghost of your past
haunting your memories
& clouding any chance of a future with you.
(i sigh like a whisper and pray this won't last.)
you always talk so slow
saying the things you think
i don't know...
but babe,
jokes on you.
I know, I know we're through.
So just go ahead & go...
if i could claw my way out
of this web of lies i've spun
i'd tell you exactly what i've done
if i could climb out of this pit as deep as my scars run
then maybe you'd see that all along
i was the only one.
2.26.2016
Bit Lips & Calling it Quits
The shades of me
lately make up
A quiet shushed
backwoods song
Of
better-late-than-never blues
Sad-sea-sick-goodbye
greens
And
bad-days-won’t-get-me-down browns.
My cheeks speak of
Sun-kissed reasons
That love is easier
to understand
It if leaves at the
turn of a season,
But tornado thoughts
Tear through my mind
During the hours
I am the weakest..
(7am-10:22pm)
I am left ravaged
Split into two
crumbled conclusions
& the dark makes
the colors
much harder to find.
So we sift it out
All day/night
Burn bridges, yell
louder
Smile/skip/kick out
the gray…
I was the one to
leave
& you were
usually right.
And in my bed I know
I can simply escape
Blankets overhead
I’m dreaming
Of new landscape.
Swallowing those:
Failed-you-more-than-once feelings
Breaking all the
blues/baby-come-back ious
On my back teeth
But hey,
I’ve got a date with
the man on the moon
So please don’t wait
up/hold your breath/hang around
There is much time to
sip
And redwine to waste
& I’m not
planning on coming home
anytime close to
soon.
11.21.2015
sinking plans.
the only truth
i've come to learn
is that mirrors lie
& anything can burn.
my face has changed,
it has new lines
they tell of love, loss, laughs
they're creases made of tricky time.
i still breathe
in & out
and love a love
that holds no doubt.
but we all make plans,
& God just laughs
we build our lives
when we really are all just aimlessly floating
on deflating life rafts...
7.23.2012
heart sunk.
i didn't know until i knew,
what lost could feel like--
knife in chest, no breath.
i didn't know what losing could do...
heart strung on so many strings.
strung out on so many things,
and I just can't
catch my breath.
i couldn't tell you so many thoughts
purple black and blue.
i couldn't share my heart
until i could see myself through...
1.11.2011
12.27.2010
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